Cold Heart

I watch as my heart grows colder the older i grow...

So Cold

I've been feeling numb lately...as if i don't care anymore. i hardly ever smile, maybe because there's nothing to smile about anymore! i know i'm a cold hearted person but i kept that side suppressed for a long time now but its popping up again and i wonder why...or maybe i know why i'm just in denial!

Wondering

Dear Private/Public Blog

Why do i have this blog up?! i mean its not like i want any1 to read it, thats why i don't share it to my facebook page, i'm a private person and like keeping shit to myself and yet here i am putting my life out there on this blog, maybe i want some total stranger out there to read it, someone other than my friends...but what good will a stranger do me?! i mean its not like i have issues...hahaha (i'm talking to myself and laughing at my own jokes....i must be losing it! LOL

I guess its just the need to write something! just incase you are still reading, don't try to make sense of what im saying because i don't even know what i'm saying!

Regards

Me

Smile

learnt how to smile even when times get rough...helps get me in that state of zen when i block out everything thats negative going on around me...! this year no more looking back or holding back!

J Cole-Show Me Somethin'

this young dude is comin up hard I tell ya...of all the great tracks he has released this 1 speaks to mwa directly and its sum deep shit!
i'm trayna side step the devil but he heartless yea/ I pray 4 my niggaz when i say grace/ i know them niggaz dnt care who they hit they spray strays/ but God please protect my family cz if they graze/ a niggaz is loading up thm semis nd em AKs'...word to Adina!
Family is all we got in this world!

The Drive

Its an exiting feeling when I get an urge to push forward in life and improve and better my self as an individual! The drive usually comes from the love of my country and wanting to see it on global status! its amazing but the question is how do i get it there!?

LIFE

What is life?! am i just one confused soul who doesn't really know where he's heading? maybe, why are we trying to live if we are gonna die any way?! what is my purpose in life? if i died today is it gonna make any difference whether i existed or not or will i be forgotten the next day or will i go down in history like the grate names Albert Einstein, Picasso, Davinci, Shakespeare, Maradona, Donald Trump and Hugh Hefner just to mention a few. By the way, just in case you are wondering why my man Hugh made the list, well, the dude is a Legend in his own frame!

I guess this kinda answers my purpose, be the best at whatever i'm good at! right now i can't really say i have something to show which is kinda why i started this blog...a search for the illusive life answers!